an absence of control.

I had a bit of an 'all over the place' summer. I had no real clue of what I'd be doing when September came back round, whether I'd be retaking a year, finishing a subject, or not even returning to sixth form and going straight out into the big wide world.
I took on more hours at work, enjoyed blogging over on Music In Time, went away with family and friends for a couple of weeks and filled my time with fun things to take my mind off of results day and September.

When September DID come around, I went on the first day for 5 hours of waiting and meetings and timetabling etc. - it wasn't fun - but I worked out what I'd be doing and I was happy. However, I had no real structure to what I was doing, my timetable was all over the place for sixth form, I had to rearrange blog work days, make time for family and friends and keep doing a weekend of work, as well as fitting in coursework, homework and the other random work that comes with A Levels. I ended up with no 'downtime' and went a few weeks without a day off and any spare time I had I was filling with work I needed to get done.

I didn't enjoy this time with an absence of control. I wasn't well, mentally or physically and I'm still not fully there - but I'm in a much better place now.
Anyway, I think what I set out to say in this blog is that I feel I can blog over on this little corner of the internet again.
I've got back on top of my A Level work, I've cut my hours of work at the weekend, I've taken on some online stuff for a band, I'm blogging on Music In Time again and I feel in control again. Expect tags, rants, creative stuffs (probably from my Creative Writing course - which is great fun!) and a little bit of lifestyle bits and bobs.

So yeah, hi again and I still need to work out what the upload day is going to be for One Day At A Time, but please expect weekly blogs again. I'm feeling a little more determined this time!